Hilang Nyawa...

Sabtu hari tu aku demam...

So aku takmo pegi keje...

Aku silent phone...

Aku letak jauh-jauh...

Layan FB kat Laptop je...

Panggilan siapa-siapa pun aku tak layan...

I don't care...

I'm done being selfless...

Time to be sellfish...

Muahaha...

Tapi tengahari tadi...

Mak sms..

"Long call mak balik..urgent.."

Aku call...

Takde ringtone..

"Semua panggilan keluar anda telah disekat buat sementara waktu..sila hubungi 1300-13-1300 terima kasih..."

Nafasku tersekat...

Kepala pening-pening lalat suda bah...

Kepala lututku longgar...

Aku pun rebah...

Semua kenangan bersama BB..

Lalu lalang dalam kepala...

Facebook...

Bb Messenger...

What's app...

Sayup-sayup aku dengar...

Bunyik ambulan datang...

Pandanganku kabur...

Gelap..

Hilang..

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Entry ni cam celaka kan..hahaha..feeling-feeling emo shaner tahh..

Die EMO Die!

Bughit ar-Out

Confession... bukan confectionery...

LENKA - LIVE LIKE YOU'RE DYING

One of these days you'll be under the covers

You'll be under the table and you'll realize

That all of your days are numbered, all of them one to one hundred

All of them millions, all of them trillions

So what are you gonna do with them all?

You can not trade them in for more, no, no

Take every moment, you know that you own them

It's all you can do, use what's been given to you

Gimme a reason to fight the feeling

That there's nothing here for me

'Cause none of it's easy, I know it wasn't meant to be

I know it's all up to me, it's all up to me

So what am I gonna do with my time?

I'll take every moment, I know that I own them

It's all up to you to do whatever you choose

Live like you're dying and never stop trying

It's all you can do, use what's been given to you

All of the moments you didn't notice gone in the blink of an eye

And all of the feelings you can't help feeling no matter how you try

Take every moment, you know that you own them

It's all up to you to do whatever you choose

Live like you're dying and never stop trying

It's all you can do, use what's been given to you

Live like you're dying and never stop trying

It's all up to you, use what's been given to you

Lagu yang memberi INSPIRASI...hik

Its Official..me no longer working with HAZWANI OSMAN..

Bukanlah macam nak membangga diri.. but kinda glad..I am my own boss from now on...there are soo many plans...tinggal konfiden atau tidak jer...

Few days before MIFA...dalam perjalanan ke bengkel...dengan badan yang lesu...memikirkan betapa sibuknya kitorunk kat bengkel nanti..tak tido..wat detailing baju2 untuk fesyen show pada MIFA nanti...berasak-asak..stress...this and that...tetiba aku terpikir...I'm 27...i dont achieve anything in my life...i dont have anything in my life...aku leh tengok diri aku kat cermin kedai2 yang aku lalu dalam perjalanan ke bengkel...i look fat..i look old....and i have nuthin...

And then i stopped...im like...OMG...i dont think i can do this anymore...Aku jalan terus jer..sampai terlepas pintu masuk bengkel...aku cal MELL...

"Nok..i cant do this anymore.. :*(..."

Plu dan drama tak boleh dipisahkan...yeah i know..so shut it...

Sambil jalan-jalan satu Sri Permaisuri tu aku membebel mengadu kat MELL betapa "lost" nya aku time tu...setelah borak borak dan borak lagi...Aku pun decide betul2 nak berhenti dan sambung bekerja kat kedai family aku SEKALI LAGI...

Mak aku dulu dah sediakan macam2 untuk aku...tapi aku banyak enjoy..main-main..aku memang tak boleh fokus pada benda yang dah sedia ada...asal ade wet...mengulor...clubbin...lepak here and there...

terlalu banyak pekung nak dibuka..cukup sampai di situ..hik

I wanna do something more..and be somebody...BUKAN POPULARITI...but respect wud be very nice...

Doakan Saya-Out

What Is Happening?...

Its 3 a.m in the morning...

Aku baru pas basuh baju..2 round by the way..
Aku baru pas makan maggi..yerpp screw the diet i promised to myself once..

Beberapa ari yang lepas kot...mood blogging datang...TETAPI..laptop ku diserang virus..yang aku dapat dari seorang barua di dalam YM...soo goin to kill him IF i know who the hell is that moron la..So tinggal lah laptop aku tu dalam bilik...tidak diguna pakai lagi...buat sementara waktu...aku tengah blogging ni pun pakai laptop MAKSU..or is it CALVIN?..gosh i'm so ignorance.. i'm so bz i dunno what happen dalam rumah ni...

Where Am I?...

Did i told u guys i broke up with BIAWAK....not proud of it..but thats what happening...

Tonite so freakin hot i really have to take a shower la.. -___-"

3:35 be rite back

3:45 Kembali...selepas mandi dan menelan sebijik ubat FLU..

Dah la panash..pastu FLU?..caner tah...kiter sekarang berada dalam musim panas guys..it was so hot..i even do the laundry at midnight..senang kan?...bangun2 baju dah kering...tak payah tunggu siang... -___-"... where were we..................

Owh ye.. lepas break up dengan BIAWAK...aku betul2 fokus kat kerja aku jer...i really do!...I mean...tah la..aku pun surprise dengan diri sendiri..i never really commited to my job this hard..sampai mentally and physically tired..(tapi tk kurus jugak)..at first i did what i did..coz i'm trying to get over him?... :P (kantoi sikit di situ).. but after that i keep myself bz sebab cuber nak meng-alihkan perhatian dari fakta yang aku ni tengah KESUNYIAN...sad eh... :P aku keje teruk2 dan tidak komplain apa2..sampai orang keliling kata aku kerja macam Bangla dan tidak ada LIFE... Ouch... tapi aku pedulikkan kata dorunk.. but of course... semua orang ada limitnya.. keje teruk2 pun.. kadang2 termakan jugak kata2 dorunk tu... and that's when aku "buat perangai" dalam kerja aku... i'll spare you the detail about that la k.. cerita pasal kerja sangat la bosan..

What Story Should I Tell You Before?...

A LOT!...

FIRST!

Dalam previous post aku kan...cerita Pasal Birthday...EKCELI ADA PART 3...i'm not going to elaborate beriye bout that...just gonna share some pics..



There...kejadian tersebut berlaku di Bukit Belacan..Since kawan aku ni.. ZUL..sehalus straw...so korang pun leh nampak la konsep parti tersebut... Aku baru cakap pasal aku terlalu bz kan.. tapi upload gamba parti harijadi.. hiks..enuff about straw..

SECOND!!

Ingat tak previous post aku pasal..er...Phone...aku cancel beli phone second hand dari SAMEON...pastu kumpul duit untuk BB?...

TADA!!!

Hik...i got myself a new phone couple of months ago...and its BLACKBERRY CURVE8520...tidak la sehebat I-PHONE milik MELL IBRAHIM atau BOLD HAZWANI OSMAN...but hey.. Yayy.. hik..kononnya kalau ada BB..aku akan rajin mengupdate blog..TETAPI TIDAK JUGAK..sebab bz dengan kerja..tapi sambil Ber-FB la.. Dulu aku kutuk orang pakai BB.. tunggu tren BB..tengah kerja BB..dalam toilet BB..tengah2 eksiden BB...now i'm like...........one of those people...adeh..... tapi bila dah dapat BB...first thing yang aku nak check..ialah KAMERA..so that i can do this!...

This..

This..

And This..

But of coz la tak leh celen...Putera Narcicist kat FB tu.. Achik Ezam hik... ok enuff about BB..definitely not going to start talking about ACHIK..kalau tak sampai subuh la kot yer..

THIRD!!

PUASA dan RAYA......Omaigudnes...i feel so bad about myself for not doin any Raya entry this year..not even puasa...kalau dulu kerja dengan Mak aku...aku boleh lari ke CC kejap untuk membebel dalam ni...NOT THIS YEAR BEBEH...Tahun ini adalah tahun membanting tulang sampai berkecai dan tak sempat mengucap.. (more like duduk bersila tak bergerak-gerak selama beberapa hari sampai sakit belakang yang MAHA AZAB dan KAKI BENGKAK pada raya ke-2)..

Exagerate camana tah...tapi yang dalam kurungan bukan Exagerate yer...

Wow..mata dah berat.. anyway..ni pic raya aku yang tak seberapa...

Adik2 aku semua berbaju raya sakan..aku sorunk je wat muka tak malu pakai t-shirt masa ni...yer...aku sangat bengang..dan raya tahun ni...sangat sangkak dari bermacam segi..First takde baju melayu...2nd..kaki aku bengkak yang sangat azab sampai menyusahkan aku untuk berjalan..3rd..Arwah Datuk aku..kembali ke Rahmatulah pada raya ke-5.... .... :(..

5:13..serusli..mata dah ngantuk..can't continue..harap aku rajin untuk sambung entry ni...there's so much to tell later on..

Fall For Someone-Out

Ketinggalan..

This thing happen A LOT to me lately.. and i'm..kinda getting worried and kinda frustrated to myself...i'm like..what the hell is wrong with me?..

Clumsy..careless..forgetful..necglectful or simply fool?..arghhhh tension sial..

Aku kalau keluar rumah..atau dari luar nak balik ke rumah..mesti ade barang tertinggal...yup..aku ulang balik..MESTI ADA BARANG TERTINGGAL... most of the time la.. Kunci.. or Handphone.. tu belum lagi barang-barang lain...

Sampai WANIE pun kene ingatkan kot... "Hp bawak tak?.. kunci bawak tak?.. barang ni bawak tak? barang tu bawak tak?".. pelupa azab la kot ya...

Last night..balik dari umah WANIE..aku pi Pelita Ampang ngan MELL.. makan minum segala...pok pek pok pek...pastu balik...sampai jer rumah..(masa tu dah mengantuk giler)...aku perasan HP takda...azab...aku dah cemas tapi mengantuk..so aku bukak FB...

Naik Hantu.. :P

Baru bangun tido.. -___-"

Sambung...

Malam tu.. eh salah.. Pagi tu.. bile MELL nampak status tu.. pukul 6 pagi baru nampak katanya... dier terus bergegas ke PELITA...THANK YOU SO MUCH MELL...Sampai jer kat Pelita dia tanya la staff-staff Pelita tu...mula-mula dorunk tak pecaya kalau tu MELL punya..which is KEMAK...pastu dorunk suh MELL call nombo aku..(bijak gak rupanya)...MELL call 3 4 kali baru la tukang mop tu bagi...

Thanks MELL...

Takleh nak ucap mekasih camana lagi tah..kalau kaya leh aku banjer..hik..

Tu salah satu la...malam tadi?..aku baru je beli rokok...baru layan sebat je..pastu terus pi KIA PENG anta baju customer ngan MELL...rokok tertinggal atas meja plak... -___-".. tak ke sial tu..tapi takde la aku mintak MELL amikkan ...he's done so much oredi...

Lagi satu KUNCI RUMAH HILANG... tertinggal dalam teksi.. i think.. -___-" dah satu keje plak nak duplicate sume balik...eeii tension!!..

Dah la..nak pakai hair straightener..

Sucky Sunday-Out

Paksa...

Warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Kalau la leh menjerit betul-betul dalam ni...

Dari hari ke sehari bawak berminggu sampai berbulan...aku memang nak sangat membebel dalam ni..but when the time comes..either i'm sleepy coz i'm too tired..or my head goes blank (especially when i dont have any pics to upload)..

WALAUPUN masa mula-mula aku start blogging dalam ni...aku tk perlukan pic lansung dan masih mampu memberikan 3000 patah kata of nuthingness...hahaha.. not funny.. -__-"..

Yeah i've been busy3.. weddings..fashion show..customers.. which is good for me pun coz this things keep me distracted from my ruined relationship.. yeah.....another failed one..the hell with it..lover comes and go.. just bayangkan aku ni macam Ally McBeal..a guy version of course...and smaller salary... -___-" so sad...

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO TYPE tadi..and now i'm membebel oredi..hik..always been like this..once aku start taip...and automatically the words in my brain flow thru my fingers on to the keyboard.. hikhik.. i like.. :D walaupun paksa.. :P

I'm watching 'Journey To The Center Of The Earth' with MAKSU n ARIEF rite now...sambil pikir2 ape nak taip pas ni sambil jenguk2 Fb..sambil pikir2 ape aktiviti aku ngan MAK aku besok..sambil pikir2 camner nak pi keje besok...dan besok adalah hari ahad..eh silap..dah masuk hari ahad dah pun..it's 3 a.m oredi...still not sleeping...tomorow suppose to be my rest day...unfortunately there's still some work need to be done...hm....and no..i'm not complaining..

but yeah... but hey.. its my blog...and at the moment..blog ni je tempat aku mengadu.. >:P

3.56 a.m..

Movie yang aku tengah layan ni abish...tapi lepas ni ade lagi satu movie best plak.. 'Deep Blue Sea'.. tak tido la aku jawabnya walaupun malam ni sejuk nak mampus dan badan aku sedap dalam comforter ni...dengan kipas menderu-deru..should've been sleeping oredi.. comforter ni memujuk-mujuk je suh tido...sebut pasal comforter.....

Its been a while la..aku tido ngan comforter n bantal je..tilam yang dalam bilik tu aku tak pakai..because of the memories...i dunno.. cam takut jer nak pakai tilam tu.. kalau korunk kenal aku.. u know how fragile i am walaupun badan besar nk mampus.. :P emosi sensitif caner tah...

maybe that person is moving on oredi but me... i need some more time... life's a bitch.. and i guess being one gonna spare me all the drama and suffering...MAKSU jer paham maksud aku kot.. it's just a temporary thing...soon Ally McBeal will find a new one.. hikhik..

I'm hungry... :P

Ade orang update kat FACEBOOK.. tgh melantak meggi asam laksa ngan telur.. owh my.. that is torture...nak aje aku pi Carefour beli maggi sat...

Anyway..citer pasal Fb ni.. this is second thing kot.. that keep me distracted from my fucked up mind.. the people.. the status.. the pic.. the lame and the win.. i think i'm of of the people who Addicted to Fb.. asal free je.. Fb first.. sambil buat kerja pun Fb gak.. infact my relationship with my ex pun fucked becoz of this thing other than myself.. sigh.. i told some people i'm gonna have a relationship with my work only at the moment.. but who knows.. time will heal.. an i'm back in the game.. :P.. game.....................

4.41 a.m..

Its so freakin cold..almost like in Genting...........amd I'm watching Deep Blue Sea.. citer ikan jaws uol.. besh3..

i'm soo hungry i think i'm gonna have my breakfast at 7 and then sleep..and then go to jakel with my mom..and then go to work...sigh.....................

Miss You...yeah You-Out

Ahad...

Tetiba aku teringin nak bercerita di petang yang TERIK ni..walaupun takde bende yang nak diceritakan sangat pun...

Patutnya aku pi tolong mak aku kat kedai ari ni...tapi kalau dah panas terik menggila (kebetulan bangun tengari dh nk ke petang..(not proud of that)..) ..kalau aku campak telur kat jalan pun..leh jadi telur goreng mata dalam beberapa saat jer...Jangan Harap lah kot ya...

*matilah kurungan dalam kurungan tu..

Selepas 14 jam pikir nak taip apa.....

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KERETA..

Adik aku Baby dah nak dpat kereta...ari tu mak aku call..tanya bila aku nak bagi sume dokumen yg diperlukan...dan untuk ke empat belas ratus kalinnya..aku cakap..."dah gaji nanti long settle sumer skali"...

yeah..i'm That sengkek..

Pakcik jeles..baby dah dapat Myvi..PERSONA aku tah bila la pulak kot ya...

Yeap..PERSONA.. baseline.. :D

*berangan 5 minit..

Reality check..Tapi dah ada kereta kang...lagi banyak kene pakai duit kot ya..minyak..duit kereta..penjagaan kereta...Reality BITE..ouch

anyway..pakcik sangat cemburu dan tidak sabar.. :P..Lagi 5 hari gaji..huwak3..

KERJA...

Hujung bulan ni STYLO Fashion Week..and yeah..aku pun akan terlibat sama...

Menakutkan...sebab..the title itself...I'm not a fashionista..or Stylo person...so the first thing that came out of my mind..is..

WHAT THE FUCK am i goin to wear...gaji pun lum masuk lagi..how?..si MELL dah beriyer-iyer canang..kata nak pegi..die mmg la berhantu bab bende2 ni..siap kata nak buat suit...

Wajah lelaki Metroseksual..*larekk

aku nak pakai pe :-(..

Selepas STYLO...akan bz dengan ABP...korang pergi? ( as in korang Ado? sebenarnya..*chaboott)..lepas ABP..ade 2 wedding..baju2 customer lain lagi...murah rezeki WANIE.. :-)..Bila nak kebas HONDA CITY?.. lalalalalala

Anyway..AMIR AMIRA..akan bercuti selama sebulan sebelum masuk kerja balik bulan 5..dan selama sebulan tu..die akan menolong aku ngan kerja2 aku di rumah WANIE..which i'm glad..sebab dah ada teman buat kerja kat umah tu...takde la mengantuk sorunk2 lagi...ari tu dah siapkan satu baju dalam satu hari dengan pertolongan Hamer Hamera Mameha.. mekasih

LOVELIFE...

Dah 3 4 bulan berjauhan dengan si DIA..dah tiba masanya..die kembali ke pangkuan..lepas berbulan Training kerja di JB..aku harap sangat2 die balik KL..sebab dah tak sanggup nak berjauhan...i only prepare myself for 3 month sahaja..if DIA pilih untuk bekerja d JB instead of KL.. aku hanya leh berdoa supaya diberikan tenaga ekstra untuk jadi lebih tabah..

huhuhu...

Mish You Like Crazy...

lagi 5 hari gaji..bluweks - Out

Dinner With Family...

Khamis lepas BABY (adik aku nombo 3) sms...katanya mak ajak jumpa...nak bincang pasal something with me and FIR (adik aku nombo 2)...

Aku ok je..since aku pun dah lama tak jumpa dorunk..walaupun dalam satu area nihh (Ampang)..

:P

I Miss My Family..

Pagi jumaat kot..BABY sms lagik...katanya tempat perjumpaan ialah di Restoran Ali Baba..which i have no idea where it is...tapi bile die kata restoran tu..betul-betul depan bangunan Great Eastern Mall...baru aku tau...

Date -- 5 march 2010

Time -- 9.oo p.m

Location -- Ali Baba Restaurant (Iranian food yang dimasak oleh bekas tukang jahit mak aku)

*matilah info tk perlu..

Anyway..pukul 8 malam baru aku gerak dari umah WANIE..kompem lambat la kot..balik2 jer dah melepak satt..online satt..makan satt.. pukul 9 baru kuar rumah...azab..:P

Dalam 9.30 camtu baru aku sampai...tapi dorunk belum sampai lagi...keji..

Dalam kul 10 camtu barula dorunk sampai...there...My Mom..BABY..FIFI..FARA..and IS..

IS tak penting kot.. -___-"..

FIR tak datang...katanya takda transport time tu...alasan cam cipet...

Aku tak selera sangat kot..tengok menu makanan Iran..sumer macam overdos je..takut..hehe..bukan nampak tk sedap..nampak ok la..tapi takde la buat aku terliur..so instead order makanan yang sepinggan 30 ringgit lebih tu..aku order kebab foldover mcm kat McD dulu..10 ringgit je..tapi kenyang sgt..rasa mcm makan serunding ayam..mmg sedap dan kenyang...MAK aku order Kebab ayam dan daging (they serve it with rice..or u can ask bread instead)...FARA order kek coklat..FIFI sama ngan aku..BABY makan ape bende tah aku pun taktau..anyway tak penting la kot aku membebel dorunk makan aku..aku yg dah bertahun blogging boleh luper nak snap gamba makanan kitorunk macam blogger2 lain selalu buat..Especially FIEBIE.. :P..

Mengong kan?.. -__-"

Yang penting..kalau sebelum ni..aku selalu ingat..MILO AIS GELAS BESAR hanya wujud di MALIBU (tempat adek2 melepak lepas balik dri club area Bukit Bintang).. Air buah kat Ali Baba ni...2 kali ganda kot..sizenya..tekejut aku tengok masa die letak atas meja...

again..i did'nt snap the pic...hahahaha.. what a bangang punya blogger... haha.. cant believe i've said that to myself..tapi tu la..this is fuckin deppresin..hahahah...

pantek

Anyway...tak perlu la aku bagitau ape yang kitorunk bincangkan...but i did told my mom that I WANT TO GET A CAR THIS YEAR...at least sebelum raya...takda la mak aku malu depan adik2 beradik die kat JB tu lagi...i mean..i'm 27 kot...dah la dorunk sibuk2 tanya bila nak kawen...itu la ini lah..like it or not..i've to face it...i'm an adult now...(muda dalam hati jew)

*tknk kalah ni..hik

By that i mean...fooling around is over...work hard...improve my life...this and that...dont play2 anymore..at least not now...I wanna play hard..I must work hard...

Kalau ade yang follow blog aku ni..korunk mesti tau..yang aku penah kene klepet nak beli kereta 2 tahun lepas...aku kempunan PESONA...so tahu ni..aku nak PESONA jugak...by hook..or by crook..baru dendam aku terbalas...*matilah dendam.. -__-".. aku akan main kutu..300 sebulan untuk 3000..yer..hidup aku akan menjadi azab sekejap.. gaji bukan besar mana pun.. *nangius..

Tapi mak aku kata PESONA mahal..die suggest aku GEN2 atau WAJA...pakcik ngeluh..hmm..tengok lah camna..kiter hanya merancang..tuhan yang menentukan kot ya..tapi KALAU BOLEH la... owang nak pesona gak.. :"(..

Ngada camana tah

hmm...

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SNAPPY TIME!

Had a blast that night...rindu terubat...semangat up sikit...duit burn.. eh..

U Better Work!-Out

Sireh Pulang Ke Ampang...

Ngantuknye.. -__-"

Aku rajinkan gak update blog..sebab kalau leh takmo la ade 5 cerita dlm satu entry mcm sebelum ni kan..cam tak best ar plak...tak meriah kata orang...

Kalau yang follow Facebook aku...korang tau kan...Aku ngan hosmet plan nak pindah keluar dari kondominum cengal Sri Permaisuri...

Today is the day...

Few weeks sebelum pindah MAKSU dah suh carik kotak..but sorry Maksu...i'm working...too tired and dont have time to do it...endingnya...

Sehari sebelum pindah...MAKSU beli kotak kat pasaraya Hero je..50 sen sekotak...kecik-kecik jer yang kitorang dapat..but better than nothing...Kotak pun kene beli skang...kemak

To be honest...i never like this idea..(moving out)...aku penat berpindah randah...tapi tah...majority wins..and that majority is my best friends...so aku mengikut je la..tapi bila aku meragam...tepaksa la dorunk tahan kot..ade ke aku meragam pun...dlm Fb maybe..tah la..but maybe next time if this thing happen again..either i'm staying...or staying with sum1else...

Dorunk sewa lori 5 tan..but still..tak leh angkut sumer..sebab dah penuh...can u imagine how many stuff and stuffed our house is.. especially when one of your friend jenis yang suka..simpan..menyimpan.."sayang nak buang" punya type of people...so instead of 1 trip..we have to take 2nd trip to move Their stuff...kat 6 ratus kot..nk pindah barang je...lepas tu nak kena tahan ngan kerenah Pak guard yang kurang hajar semuanya kat situ...Cengal

God i'm sleepy... =__=...nescafe satt...

Anyway...masa aku menaip entry ni..aku dah pun berada ni Ampang Campuran...the only good thing yg wat aku setuju duk sini...pasal dekat ngan umah Wani..dan teramat dekat ngan umah Neng...walaupun tempat ni macam membosankan..kot..tapi mana la tau kan..baru sehari di sini..we never know kan..esok2..aku mengamuk plak tkmo pindah dri sini..hehe...

They say sometime changes is good..so aku pegang quote tu..and try to accept this whole moving out-in thing...

I snap some pics by the way.. Giler tk snap..

Penat2 pun masih mampu berposing untuk peminat..

EWAN tgh menghalau hantu..pawang moden..

Lori 5 tan pun tkleh bawak semua benda ni..

Last but not least... J.D on the rock...

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kiddin..hik

Changes-Out

Lie to urself? or Take ur chances..

THANKS TO THESE GROUP OF HATERS..

I WANNA SAY SOMETHING..

Aku menyampah..dengan meluat dengan korang2 yang feeling2..Tak pecaya ngan Cinta ni..

-Aku tak percaya Cinta-

-Love sucks-

Di atas ialah Quote2 yang dipetik dri golongan manusia macam ni...If you had a bad experience with your partner that does'nt mean Love suck...either it's YOU! or YOUR PARTNER!..maybe u just hate to admit ur fuckin mistake..You blame it on love???? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE...

Yang paling lawak BEBUDAK EMO bermaskara eyeshadow bagai tu...korang feeling2 macam korang tak perlukan cinta..TETAPI bila bab jiwang korang lah drama queen and king kan?..

UGLY POSERS..that i give you la..Emo mcm pantek..

Someone said "I Love You Infinity" tonite..i am soo happy..i put it in my Fb status..

and datang la golongan2 ni nak menjatuhkan mood aku kan..berani mampus camana tah..tapi aku takde la terus mengamuk...aku patahkan kenyataan2 mereka dgn sabar...tapi tajam..ko nak argue ngan blogger yg banyak menaip kan..silap orang lah..

LOVE DOES'NT SUCK..PEOPLE SUCK!..accept the truth la..

I'm 27..i had my experience..i always prepare for the worst la..for now i wanna enjoy my PRESENT..as in NOW...what past is past...what future is future lah..buat apa nak pikir bende yang lum tentu jadi...unlike other people yang ANTI-BERCINTA lepas kene tipu..sampai bila korang nak macam tu?..sampai tua?...sok lusa ko nak kawin jugak..or ditemani jugak...ATAS DASAR APA?...puaskan nafsu haiwan memasing?..dah tua kang?..mampu ker?...dah tua kang..dah tak mampu kang?..jgn terhegeh-hegeh mencarik cinta...aku pulak yang carik korunk time tu..gelakkan muka ko depan2...

"Dulu kau kekwat..skang baru nak emo lonely pe lancau kan?"

Kalau bukan pasal CINTA..korang tak menyemak kat dunia ni tau?..

I know my love story either ups or down..aku share sikit2 dalam ni..new love and break up...but I DID TELL YOU..i wont give up kan..sampai biler nak depressed?...screw the risk la..i'm taking my chances..if i can be happy even for a day...I TAKE IT..lantaklah pathethic mcm mana pun...dri tak dapat lansung???

Like it or not...you just cant live without it...or u just DIE alone!...if u choose that...Lantak lah ko..idup la dgn kedegilan ko tu...

Tak percaya cinta konon...piiiiraaahhhh mabuk!..

marah tul aku.. -___-".. sumernye pasal aku nak share status and share happiness..manusia2 ni nak DOWN kan aku...sepak sesekor kang

LOVE DOES'NT SUCK..PEOPLE SUCK!-Out

*larikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

What did i miss..eh..You missed..hik

Teruk la aku skang..

Lagi teruk dari Ginger.. eh..

Kalau die musim padi..aku musim ape plak tah.. :P

So many things going on in my life since i work with Wanie...thanks to her...banyak pengalaman manis more than pahit...yang aku dapat dan benda2 baru yg aku blajar (kot) dalam industri ni...it can be cruel..it can be fun..

Aku sangat berhati-hati...stepping on other toes...serupa macam pijak periuk api...it'll blow up ur feet then to ur face...

Or is it aku yang takut sgt ngan sesetengah orang dlm industri ni ek?.. tah la.. aku selesa buat kerja dalam diam....aku takkan cakap banyak.. since one pic worth thousands word... aku akan paste some picture.. bende2 yang aku patut update..tapi tak update sebab bz atau.. er..

malas.. -__-"

I'm a bad blogger lah lately...3 months late..to be axact...eh..........................tak la lama sgt....

kot.. Anyway...lepas edit punya edit..here's some of the best moment in my life..some are bz moment.. but experiencing a new interesting thing..is always a best moment.. ;-)

TAPI.. tak semua pic yg aku nak upload ada dlm ni..some files are missing lepas aku format D aku ari tu...kemak...i'll find those missing picture later...kat Maksutimah ade kot..

Masa ni sambutan NEW YEAR kat PAVILLION with MAKSUTIMAH..PIJUT and EWAN..happening..memang di luar jangkaan..its like outdoor clubbing...dorunk letak Dj booth kat luar Pavi..pastu pasang lagu club kuat sampai kul 3...lagu2 RnB plak tu...mana orang tk melayan...MAKSU ajak lepak Bukit Bintang...tapi aku prefer Pavi time tu.. sambutan dorunk tk seganas umat2 area Bukit Bintang...tapi memang sesak la...sampai satu tahap..aku menjerit dalam hati.."i dont give a fuck la to those fireworks..i just wanna find a nice spot to dance"...Bukan tengah2 pak arab yg basah lencun..dak budak2 tektonik dgn teknik yg azab...anyway...it was a blast..



Yang ni pulak masa dekat AJL..urusan kerja..but still..bekerja sambil tgk AJL live?..siapa taknak..Thanks to HAZWANIE OSMAN.. sebab bawak aku ke sana..but of kos la..assist her this and that...Wanie mesti marah sebab aku pakai Her..hahaha..tapi nk wat camana...err.....i reserve my comment... :P.. yang pasti... aku baru edit 94 patah kata yang aku taip selepas "yang pasti"..hik

Yang ni plak masa parti Ulang tahun Murai.com...Honestly aku pun taktau Murai.com ni ape..aku tgk pun mcm Majalah hiburan..tapi versi online...Wanie kene design baju berkonsepkan Boy George malam tu...(kekok nk pakai bahasa2 fesyen ni -___-") Hatta pulak konsep Micheal Jackson..Khairi Sufi dapat Ramlah Ram...Amir Loqman amik Anita Mui..Sya Saharani dapat Madonna..everybody have done a good job..but it's kinda Boring party...konsepnye? syok sendiri...but still i had fun..So u guys notice dlm pic2 di atas..pic aku takda kan...aku takde masalah kot nak upload pic dlm ni..tapi join those...er...elite people untuk bergambar...aku cam segan skek kot...so staying behind the camera is fine with me lah...dorunk sume elok2..stylo2..tetiba Big Foot enterprame...buruk pulak pic nanti... -__-" biarla aku low profile je..

Lawa kan?..hik..pic ni aku amik masa aku ikut Wanie pegi studio KarangKraf di Shah Alam untuk photoshoot majalah Pengantin...masa kat situ jugak la..i met ARENIQUE..siapa igt die?..yg lebih dikenali sebagai Ratu Penampar dulu..takde yang menarik untuk diceritakan..i just ignore him like he ignore me...anyway..its interesting seeing how photoshoot's been done...new experience.. i like.. ;-)

Lastly but not least..Majlis perkahwinan Syamsul Hirdy dan Allen di Paser Puteh Johor...dlm bulan 2 ni jugak la..baru lagi...Selamat Pengantin Baru to both of them...its been a blast and bz3 sampai aku demam..haha..tapi bukan la demam pasa bekerja..demam pasal duk dalam aircond yang sejuk menggila..aku ni badan je besar..tapi mana leh sejuk sangat..sama ada aku demam..or semput...tapi yang penting kerja jalan...Alhamdulillah...

I'll find those missing picture..and will update to u guys later....."later" sgt...haha...

Semalam dan 2 hari lepas..aku dapat Ikut WANIE ke Istana Budaya..dapat tengok persembahan FAIZAL TAHIR..AIZAT dan DATO' CT..FAIZAL TAHIR ROCKS!...paling happening dlam 3 org penyanyi malam tu...pic?..dont ask............ -___-"

He's Just Not That Into [Y]ou..

Aku tak ingat bila..tapi ari tu..BIAWAK ada copy filem masuk dalam laptop aku...ada la dlm 4 ke 5 filem..salah satunya He's Just Not That Into You...filem lain..aku dah tgk...sumer best2...memang taste BIAWAK sama ngan aku...cuma satu movie ni jer aku macam..acuh tak acuh jer nak tengok..sebab tajuk die yg agak menyakitkan hati..i'm not the type of guy who handle REJECTION very well..so bila tengok tajuk filem ni..rasa mcm kene lempang...hate it..

But last night dalam bosan2 tu.. sampai tengok FB pun takde benda... aku paksa diri aku tengok movie ni...sebab aku tau ni mesti "Chick Flick"..not that i'm a chick..duh~..tapi PLU mana yang tak layan chick flick kan.. hik.. this self-improvement movie really helps me to move on a bit..tears by tears...kepala aku ringan...and i'm smiling...i'm gonna paste the synopsis for u guys k..

A group of interconnected..Baltimore-based twenty- and thirtysomethings navigate their various relationships from the shallow end of the dating pool through the deep..murky waters of married life..trying to read the signs of the opposite sex..and hoping to be the exceptions to the "no-exceptions" rule...

Gigi (Ginnifer Goodwin) just wants a man who says he'll call--and does--..While Alex (Justin Long) advises her to stop sitting by the phone..Beth (Jennifer Aniston) wonders if she should call it off after years of committed singlehood with her boyfriend..Neil (Ben Affleck)..but he doesn't think there's a single thing wrong with their unmarried life..Janine's (Jennifer Connely) not sure if she can trust her husband..Ben (Bradley Cooper)..who can't quite trust himself around Anna (Scarlett Johansson)... Anna can't decide between the sexy married guy..or her straightforward..no-sparks standby..Conor who can't get over the fact that he can't have her.. And Mary (Drew Barrymore) who's found an entire network of loving..supportive men..just needs to find one who's straight..

Kalau Drew Barrymore ada...memang kompem aku suker..she is soo cute and adorable...and i am adorable chaser...huwak2...anyway.. i can relate myself to GIGI and JANINE in this movie..GIGI tak pernah give up..walaupun dah banyak kali terluka dan malu..and JANINE..dgn masalah lover dier yang MAKAN LUAR dan CURANG!..

erm..anyway.. here's some of my favourite quote from this film which...kinda make me feel better after watching it..

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Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up..if a guy punches you..he likes you..never try to trims your own bangs..and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending..

every movie we see..every story we're told..implores us to wait for it..

the third act twist:the unexpected declaration of love..the exception to the rule..

but sometimes..we're so focus to find our own happy ending..we dont learn how to read the signs..how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who dont..the ones who will stay..from the ones who will leave..

And maybe this happy ending does'nt include a wonderful guy..Maybe its you..on your own..picking up the pieces and starting over..freeing yourself up for something better in the future..Maybe the happy ending is just..moving on..

Or maybe the happy ending is this..
Knowing that through all the unreturned phone calls and broken hearts..through all the blunders and misread signals..through all of the pain and embarrassment..you never, ever gave up hope..

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Part girls and trim bangs tu..takyah la amik kan.. :P.. tapi yang aku hilite ni..i dunno.. it makes me feel good..despite what happen.. sikit la......... i'm not healed..the pain is too deep.. but i'm ok...

Aku baru suggest movie ni kat sorunk member ni.. aku tak expect la die akan ok macam aku..sebab rumah tangga die dah ala2 telur hujung tanduk je ni.. but at least i try kan..

Makin sayang dengan BIAWAK..dan makin takut memikirkan bulan 1 ni...takut takleh handle kalau dier pergi jauh..hurm...

Skype-Memory-Me-You-Read-Out

Minggu Sakit Hati..

Pertama..

Kalau dulu..aku yang dibawa bicara..aku yang dipanggil tuk meneman di kala gembira ataupun duka..aku yang dipanggil untuk bergossip dan mencarut...tapi sejak aku berkapel..things have changed..aku dibelakangkan...pergi mapley tak ajak..perkembangan terbaru..aku orang terakhir tau..atau pun aku taktau lansung..hanya mengharap pada spekulasi sendiri...dan kebarangkalian MENGUMPAT pasal aku..toksah cerita la..sebab KAU memang dah aku kenal berperangai begitu....so jangan nak sentap2 ngan aku kalau tiba2 aku pandang muka kau pun tak..sebab AKU KECIK HATI..JAUH HATI..dan sumer yg sama jenis dengannye...

Kedua..

I fought for you..and god knows how many times i've cried..i've drunk..i'm out of my fucking mind just to get u back..but u throw it all out the window or back to my ugly face...i gave up..which is fucking hard..i moved on..which is fucking hard..i've found someone who loves me sooo much..then it slowly..makes me forget about u..which is fucking hard 2........... Not completely...but i feel good..i feel better..i feel loved...and slowly...i am healed...and suddenly u come back with a lousy sms... you've dreamt about me?.......u have got to be kidding me...

Ketiga..

Ko dah ignore die 2 bulan...dier pun dah stop terhegeh-hegeh carik ko...die meneruskan hidupnya..dan berjumpa aku...we fall for each other..and we "saved" each other in many way a person can be saved..and tiba2 ko carik die balik..ko nk rampas die dari aku...KAU NAK MAMPOS ye?...Alhamdulillah die sayang aku lebih dari kau..infact dier dah tak sayang kau lansung..dier janji ngan aku die takkan layan kau lagi..walaupun aku bukanlah orang yg senang percaya..aku sejuk hati dier ikut cakap aku..dier pun bukan budak bodoh..buat apa nak layan orang macam kau yang bagi alasan bz dengan kerje selama 2 bulan which is freakin lame..tiba2 sms nak dia balik...bodola dude..... -___-"

Ke-empat..

Kepada PANTAT yang sangka aku dah hilang taring..blog basi..blog malap lagi senja dah mengundur diri sebab drama percintaan...FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER :-) ..Bukak tutup blog aku...KAU PENAJA?..KAU MENTOR?..KAU SIAPA? ops.. tak semestinya cara penulisan aku berubah.. aku tidak pandai "mengatur kata".. DONT PUSH THE RED BUTTON sebab aku nak blogging benda2 yang menghiburkan aku jer..bukan kau...I Am A Big Fan of IMAH LENGGOK..but that does'nt mean i wanna be like her..or write like her..sumer orang ada style sendiri..and this is my style..if its boring..so be it..if its changing..so be it..i'm still the boss of my goddamn blog .. UR DRAMA..IS UR DRAMA ONLY..IT IS NONE OF MY FUCKING BUSINESS...so please...STOP BEING A MORON.. :-) aku pandai maki jugak..tinggal lagi macam kau yang feeling grand maki orang dalam blog.. i rather spit on his/her face... LIVE.. tq.. UNDERESTIMATE ME NOT ye my dear..

Kelima..

Sms dihantar..message dihantar..YM pun berisi... satu persatu dijemput... tapi tak datang gak.. so tak boleh ke aku kecik hati?.. boleh kan?..

Sentaplah-Out

Kuiz Personaliti..

10.10 a.m

Baru lepas call Baby..tgh tunggu giliran nak memandu..die tgh amik lesen memandu btw..anyway Baby...hati2 di jalan raya...jangan terlanggar orang sudah...tabahkan diri masa naik bukit...sebab naik bukit mmg selalu masalah kan?..tapi taktau la kalau ngan Baby..bende tu hujung2 kuku je..huahuaha...

Anyway...melangoknya aku di sini pepagi buta...sebab nk kongsi beberapa kuiz personaliti yang aku layan tadi..dan beberapa result yg ada...lately ni aku asik layan kuiz2 ringkas yang ada kat facebook tu...it looks like fun..and it is Fun doing it...tapi makin lama aku tgk kuiz nye..makin lama makin bodo..sebab pengguna facebook dibenarkan membuat kuiz sendiri...kalau yg betul2 seronok tak apa lagi...kuiz sesama member dimaafkan lagi..tapi kuiz mcm ni?

Seberapa comelkah anda?
Korunk bakal senior yang poyos..atau sebaliknya?
Sebusuk manakah kaki anda?
Macam mana tahap kepondananmu?

Seriously?...

Anyway..ni salah satu bende menarik yg aku jumpa masa duk layan kuiz2 ni...

Stress pictures: Check your stress level

The slower the pictures move, the better your ability of handling stress.
Alleged criminals see them spinning around madly while seniors and kids see them still

Korunk tgk bergerak tak...kalau aku yang tengok..mmg bergerak...tapi tak la spinning around madly...but it did move...berombak-ombak katanya...

There's another one...

Stress test: Discover what is causing you stress!
This test is actually about the cause of recent stress.

Choose three scenarios out of these four:

- A group of people taking photographs
- A galloping horse
- A house with a garden
- A statue of the goddess Venus

Analysis

This test is actually about the causes of recent stress and the vital scenario is the one you left out.

If you left out the one with the

- Group of people taking pictures:
This means that you're very tired with your relationships right now

- Galloping horse:
This means that you are tired and stressed over work recently.

- House with the garden
This means that you are tired with some matters concerning your family or household lately

- Statue of Venus
This means that you are stressed over matters of the heart. Not exactly relationship problems, but more to do with being tired of trying to settling things with your girlfriend/boyfriend.

I left out that galloping horse...
And yeah,..it's true...

Anyway..bukanlah aku nak kompang aku stress ke ape...i just want to show you guys...that this quiz gimme a real answer...because it is a real quiz...

Ada lagi jawapan2 yang menarik..hasil soal jawab dalam kuiz yg aku buat kali ni...

Human resource department - This is a real personality test given by the human relations department at many of the major corporations today.
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Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Emotions test - Do you have a healthy attitude towards your emotions?
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Your attitude towards your emotions is a healthy one. You aren't ashamed to let your emotions show occasionally, and you will undoubtedly be much healthier because of this attitude. You are likely to be a good social advisor.

Ngeh3... ekceli takda la betul semuanya...but kebanyakan la...huahua..*did'nt mean to brag...just sharing it with you guys...

11.10 a.m

Sambung tido&Mish my Baby-Out

Note to myself..

Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand..

Held loosely..

with an open hand..

the sand remains where it is..

The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on..

the sand trickles through your fingers..

You may hold onto some of it..

but most will be spilled..

A relationship is like that..

Held loosely..

with respect and freedom for the other person..

it is likely to remain intact..

But hold too tightly..

too possessively..

and the relationship slips away and is lost...

There is one pain I often feel which you know because it is caused by the absence of you..

4 DAYS 22 HOURS 54 MINUTES Until EARTH HOUR

Feels Good To Be Home..

Hik..Adik2 aku yang lain..maybe korunk dah kenal kot..sebab penah post dalam ni..tapi yang kecik ni..bukan adik aku...FIFI n FARA..kadang amik upah jaga SARAH ni..yup..babysit..dri dier belum boleh merangkak..sampai la pandai berjalan..pandai demand..pandai melepuk..dorunk jaga...she's like part of our family rite now..Tapi si FARA...lahanat sgt..keje duk mengular..dier tinggalkan si SARAH sorang2 kat umah..sib baik aku datang..kalau tak meraung sampai takde sore la budak ni...sib baik la abang ko ni jenis dah lembut hati..kalau tak dulu..aku la yang paling bengis ngan adik2 aku..tak cukup maki..lebam sana..lebam sini..yeah i know..not cool..pakcik insap..tapi skang BABY plak amik alih...tak pasal2 kene maki si FARAH petang tu..

"KO APASAL MERAYAU TINGGAL SI SARAH!!" --BABY

"Kejap je lah!..umah belakang ni je" --FARA

"Kejap bontot kau..Long sampai umah 2.3o tadi ye anjeng" --Aku

"Eh apa plak?! kita kuar rumah kul 3 ok..Long biar betul >:P" --FARA

"Eh..aku tau la pukul brapa aku sampai bongok.. Dgn SARAH MERAUNG-RAUNG kat dalam..sib baik la long datang..kalu tak?!..mampus si SARAH ni sensorunk ko tinggalkan!" --Aku

"Eii..orang kuar sekejap je la.." --FARA

"Bontot ko la kejap..sib baik la aku reti lagi mcm mana nak buat susu budak ni.." --Aku

"NI APASAL PINNGAN TAK BASUH?!..NI LA KO KATA KEMAS??!" --BABY

"DAH KEMAS LA NI BODO!" --FARA

"KEMAS KEPALA HOTAK KAU!..MCM NI KE RUPA KO MENGEMAS?!..BASUH SUMER NI..KEMAS DAPUR NI!" --BABY

Mrasa...BABY betul2 menghayati watak SITI TANJUNG PERAK dlm BAWANG MERAH BAWANG PUTIH...apa2 pun..tu la senario biasa kat umah aku...

Lebih baik hujan batu di rumah sendiri...

Peaceful-Out